Scripture | Philippians 4:19
“But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”
Around mid-August 2013 I was stressed. I had no idea how I was going to pay my bills on September 1st. Since my accident, I was not working and had two mouths to feed. When I was a kid I had a chip on my shoulder when it came to church because it seemed like God and church was just for adults. He was always blessing them and doing wonders, while we sat on the back pews waiting on service to end. I needed God just as much as the adults. Needless to say, the lack of a real youth department was the real issue, but who knew at 16. Testimony service amazed and frustrated me. I was especially amazed at the “somebody brought me food when we were hungry,” or “all my bills were paid by a stranger”—you get the picture. Well, I wanted a story like that. I was going through some major struggles as a teen. Eventually, God would show me on more than one occasion that He was just as real in my young life as all those awesome, testimony-having adults. Fast forward several years and its mid-August 2013 and I’m not in a pretty situation.
I began to pray for peace. While sorting through some old papers, I came across a stack of affirmations I had written up and one read, “The way is already made.” I took it and nailed it to my bedroom door so that I would have to pass it constantly, and every time worry tried to talk to me I would say aloud, “The way is already made!” I just stood on that, prayed with confidence, and worshiped God. Well, the last week of August I received a phone call from the disability insurance company telling me they owed me one last check. I said “okay.” Then a few days later, I went to the mailbox and there was a check for over $1200 and another unexpected check for $500 that was owed to me from another source. Included was also a card with $249 for food. A day or so later, I received a call approving me for unemployment. In total that day, I had close to $2000 in my mail box a few days shy of September 1st– none of which I was expecting. The way was truly “already” made! I have never gone hungry nor have my children begged for bread. Trusting can sometimes be hard especially when we are so used to carrying the load, but it is truly an exercise in faith, in that God knows what we need even before we ask. At the end of the day, He is still a Daddy, and we are still His kids.
Thank You Lord for everything You have done, everything You are doing, and everything You are going to do in my life. Thank You for every single time You have made Your presence known. Thank You for the ability to pull from my very own store house of testimonies when doubt and fear seek to hinder me. Thank You for my testimonies, for they are great weapons of warfare in the battle for my peace. I ask for nothing today for I have everything I need in You. Your grace is sufficient. I declare that You are my source, my peace, and my one defense. Amen.