Scripture | Proverbs 3:4-5
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.”
He knows what’s best for me.
Although my weary eyes, they can’t see.
So I’ll just say, Thank you, Lord.
I won’t, I won’t complain.
The lyrics above are from a song that came out in the 80’s entitled “I Won’t Complain.” As Rev. Paul Jones sang these lines (and more like them) with intensity, believers everywhere identified with his message. We’ve all faced difficult seasons during which we could not help but wonder, Where is God? Why has He allowed such trouble to come into my life? When is this suffering going to end? Where is the fulfillment of the promise He made me oh so long ago? But like Rev. Jones expresses, have we persevered in faith and decided to trust God in spite of the pain, confusion and frustration?
This year has been the most challenging one in my life. I’ve faced heartache and emotional pain like never before. There were days when I didn’t even want to breathe the next breath. I felt betrayed by God because He allowed me to walk right into a situation that He could have prevented. After all, isn’t it His job to protect me from all hurt, harm and danger?
The dark times showed me that I was not the Christian I thought. My faith was not as strong as I once believed. I thought my trust in the Lord was comparable to the best of all saints, but that was not so. And although I hated the process I went through to learn the lessons, it was necessary for me to truly know God as my “all and all.” You see, often when you are at your lowest point, no man or woman can say or do anything to bring you up. Only God can reach down to those depths and deliver you from such despair.
And while I still have my struggles from what I’ve experienced and am waiting (impatiently at times) for a certain promise to be fulfilled, I know that if I put my faith and trust in Him, everything will be alright. I do not pretend to fully understand why the road has been so hard. And I definitely cannot say I always agree with the way God does things. However, I know in the midst of my hurts and disappointments that He is still on the throne. His promises for me are still yes and Amen, regardless of how things look in the natural. His track record has shown that He will work all things out for the good of those who love Him. Therefore, I choose to trust Him…even when it hurts.
Heavenly Father, as I face the storms of life, help me to know that You are present with me. There is nothing I will ever face that You will not help me overcome. Increase my faith and trust in You. Help me to not rely on my finite wisdom, but to anchor myself in Your infinite wisdom. May I always acknowledge You in what I say and do. And may my feet willingly go wherever You lead. Thank You for never leaving or forsaking me. It’s in Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.